I've had my episodes in the past, about a few months ago especially. Luckily I managed to slowly snap out of it, not completely though.
If you feel like you can't cope with it/live with it, seek professional help IMMEDIATELY. I don't mean internet friends or forums. A real life therapist, as many sessions as it takes. A lot of people who did are reporting positive results.
Most importantly, know that there is always help. Stay safe <3