Alright, if anybody keeps still reading this, i am trying to clear any misunderstood points.
1. i didn't aim for my tv, the object that i threw accidentally hitted my tv, my heart sunk because i knew, i damaged a expensive piece of technology in my own home.
2. I dont condone or do violence on other human beings, most or all my outburst are object centered. I love helping and bringing positivity to people near me. I never attack people without any good reason, i don't harm animals if i am angry, i never ever ever want to or like to hurt any human or animal with my outbursts, its only material at best.
3.proffesional help. Like mentioned before, i have gone through about 3-5 years worth of psychiatry, doctors and other type of visits.
4. other games, i try to play other games but like i said before, some games get stale and boring, cause more anger or i simply don't have the money to buy more.
I was playing hearthstone and i kept loosing while trying to be creative on my decks.
After witnessing like over 98% of hs just being net decks, and kept loosing.
my anger grew up and i yeeted a mini fan for a phone which ricocheted on my 42 inch tv in my living room.
Well, congratulations for being mentally immature person with anger management problems that lost probably more than feck hundreds of dollars over shitty online card game. Serves you right!
But with such a mental problem broken TV is your least problem. I can't imagine person like you finding job or a partner or just staying alive...
allot of people like me as a good person because i am social person, you only know a tiny sliver of my whole personality because of this post, which got more eyes then expected. to answer your questions. 1.Mental problems are hard to fix or cure, 2. breaking the tv was a accident. 3.job finding can be hard because of the cheer magnitude of expectations waited from a worker. 4.partner, getting a partner isn't also simple, you need to have time, effort, love, passion and things in common or things to talk or act about to have healthy relationship. 5.how em i still alive is mostly because i dont take big chances in life.
6.i am suprised that how many other people have had same type of outbursts before and how many people have had motivated feedback, many people here have had really good suggestions which will be taken into action to improving future solo behavior, without some of these comments, i wouldn't have had this well thought knowledge.
PS. to some people asking, did i really break my tv, yes, it really broke and i am trying to solve the problem. Accidents happen and i am trying to fix it. Again, i didn't want or aimed at my tv.
I like to get up to D5 for the rewards. Don't care for Legend but with the stars bonus it is doable every month. The fastest way to do it is play a net deck (or modified, slightly, if you are so inclined). Can't beat them - join them. It goes quicker that way. I then do whatever I like, it's all homebrews until the end of the season past D5.
When the meta gets stale I play once every 2-3 days. I can do multiple quests in one go and don't get frustrated with it as much. Still get the exp., just more efficiently. That's where I get the enjoyment when facing the same deck for the 100th time. At least I get EXP and progress. I remind myself that they will nerf something in a few days... mini-set is coming etc. There's always something you can do to manage the frustrating aspects.
The biggest of all was already mentioned: acceptance. You will win and you will lose. 100% both of those things will happen. And there will be long streaks of win and long streaks of loss sometimes. That, too, will pass.
Very high of motivation and in sight on hearthstone.
I thank you for the thoughtful feedback.
I should probably do the same after maybe, week or so.
I know i am doing empty wishes but for me, i would literally just want a working concept for the classes or class i play.
Shaman has been my main since shudderwock, not because shudderwock otks but because the randomness and fun you could have, i made a shudderwock dragon shaman even.
The point is, shaman for example should only have 2-3 archtypes which would be bolstered around between expansions and than change em up little bit.
Like for evolve shaman, evolve spells instead.
For totems, use them as weapons.
Elementals could do effects that effect the board.
Thats how you can be even more creative and fun! But because blizzard decided to give freeze,dragon,totem, elementals,weapons,overload,spell, battlecry, jade archtypes jam packed to one class. It makes it harder to be creative when there are minimal amount of tools supporting each archtype fully.
Tbh the problem is more with u than the game. if u lose control to a point where u damage things out of anger should be a warning, maybe u should try to seek help? because if u are this way playing a video game u probably act equal in other situations and endanger other people just because u arent able to control ur temper. changing behaviour is rly dificult without profesional help so maybe u give it a try.
I don't wanna sound mean, but hearthstone is very often frustrating in my opinion. I also play daily but it's just becouse of quest. You really need to find something to calm you down or a better game with less frustrating moments.
I'm pretty lucky, sonic unleashed Hawaii wherehog nearly made me destroy my bed and wii controller. You was very unlucky but shit can be waaaaaay worse 😁
(a friend of mine was shitting and kicked the toilet to hard)
Playing other games is always a good suggestion.
But what game would it be is the hardest question.
Every person have different game genre tastes, one mans reccomendation could be others gold or cobber mug.
Im going through games that i have played.
Hereos of the strom was fun but i quited because teams were usually bad or i got insults.
Overwatch, my favorite tank hero reinhardt only gets less defensive, also it makes getting angry and frustrated really easy.
World of warcraft is like breathing fresh Forrest air when you play it for the longest time, only problem is monthly payment, the expansion cost (bfa gave me..soo much pain....) otherwise its good until you play it too much, it evolves from breathing fresh air to smoking.
Gta 5, simple. Im lonely. I might have money but, im just sad and lonely...
Binding of isaac, it either goes really well or you have 70 death streak and you wish you never picked the game.
I have tried to play old classic nfs most wanted 2005 version, it is fun but its the samething kinda, also lost about over 2 hours progress because getting busted, its fun otherwise, unless it just the samething over and over again.
Warcraft 3, people quit constantly, some are toxic and hosting or finding games can take time and sometimes ping issues
Imma say this, if i had like 5,000€ i would probably try more different games here and there, buy better vr equipment an such, but because you are jobless man with soo many different problems, money will always be lacking.
You are either hired and you have no time to play games or jobless and have no money to buy games.
I am sad to hear that trust me man it is not worth it games should bring joy and relaxation not anger try working out when you feel like breaking stuff...once i destroyed my chair and i didint have money to buy new one so i was sitting on some old wodden shit and i destroyed my back anger also consumes your money not just energy haha hope u feel better now
Been there also.
Back problems are the worst type of pain. Thanks for couragement.
Actually, that won't do shit. It's good to sometimes let all of your anger out in a scream, a throw, a punch on something. Humans are not pacifists by nature, it's okay to be aggressive once in a while.
I try to control my anger when trying to enjoy something, because whatever you play, you will loose at something, no matter whatbut, if the entertainment is larger then the frustration, you will get through with it.
At this point, frustration has been going up and up while desperately trying to find enjoyment.
Have to learn to accept that meta decks will be what you see in ladder and the majority in casual as well. Don't stop being creative, but do accept this reality. If you're playing ranked and lose 3 games in a row, consider taking a break for the day or a few hours. You'll misplay if you play tilted and lose more.
Ill try to remember this, even thoe i suffer from mild memory control.
I usually used to play Hearthstone really creativily, obviously you don't always win, you don't always come up at the top and win games like crazy.
But i went from diamond player to low silver within many months.
Almost every month, every new expansion, i just became worse and worse and worse, my happiness came from making interesting decks and them working in moderate levels, and its exciting because you made something that was fun, exciting and it worked. I made a deck using murlocs, dragons, totems, spells, overload and weapons in one deck, and it actually worked in the time being, it didn't get me millions wins but it was fun when it worked.