Actually, I am morose, very! For this game has been dear to me for so many years that it almost feels like home. But to stick with the analogies: The house is totally in shambles, draft lets me chill, my flate-mate, a priest, is totally obnoxious and steals my breakfast serial every single morning I wake up: I reckon you get the picture!
What has happened? I feel helpless at time, even though I stick to a deck and play it (DISCLAIMER: I have been in this game since its start and played Mage with knife and shield summons for Victory, but, after a little while, when I get attuned with my deck (Mech-Paladin btw) it starts to feel like a chore. You meet the very same decks: So much so, that I started a drinking game by predicting the arrival of Zephyros and Dragon-Queen: Lemme tell you folks: I GET DRUNK A LOT.
This is a rare month that I have decided not to climb to 5. The decks that are viable are both unfun to play and unfun to face imo. Luckily the expansion is around the corner and I'm hoping the fun will return with it.
I just wrote a long message to someone else regarding something similar. I would suggest seeking the advice of a mental health professional, and find out how your life got to the point where a card video game grew to have this type of importance, and therefore to have this much impact on your life. It's not healthy.
I appologize if the following doesn't apply, as you live in a communist, or otherwise non-democratic country, but we're supposed to live in a society where if you start feeling like this at your place of employment, you're able to find employment somewhere better. I can understand when people feel miserable and stuck in their jobs, as it's their means of income, and therefore life. Leaving to find another job could risk food on their family's table.
Hearthstone is a game. It's meant for enjoyment. There are tens of thousands of games out there. There are millions of other hobbies and activities. If a game, hobby, or activity is causing a negative impact on your life, you find a new one. There's no risk, or penalty. If you continue to choose playing a game that has a massively negatively impact on your life, there's an extremely good chance you have some underlying issues. Overtly punishing yourself isn't natural. There's lots of resources for addiction and mental health out there, and I sincerely hope you take advantage.
this season i can't counterpick a deck, because every ladder game is a new deck. doesn't mean a whole new deck, but another from a previous match up. you can see on the screenshot: every game is another decktype opponent.
so i am bouncing on rank 2 - rank 1for the last 2 weak or so. This is the longest legend road for me. idk what is happenening. every previous season you could see the same picture on the last week of the month: 70% of aggro, 20% of control and a rare 10% of otk\combo decks. Now there is a whole bunch of playstyles all over the place.
Thank you for your kind words, I will definitely seek psychological help immediately, now that I have voiced my disgruntlement over a game, I am in dire need of help and prescription as well. As I have stated my addiction problems clearly in my starting post, you have rightfully addressed them with condescension and hidden insinuation concerning my mental state.
Thank you my friend, you are truly the best. May you find many posts where you can assume personal problems, tell the person how to handle them and feel good about you, as you are clearly superior.